Good morning life
Posted on January 2, 2013
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I’ve always had a pretty good idea of who I was and where I wanted to be in my life. But the last few months of a year now in the past were often filled with a part of me wandering blindly. The days would come and go and I would sink into that dark place that would bury me alive and set fire to the precious hours that lay at my feet as regret and ash.
The sun would rise and set again and again. Sometimes it took days for me to come out on the other side and this beloved man would wait patiently for me to emerge back into the woman he has always loved with so much passion, loyalty, generosity and kindness.
I spent most of December with my family and my weeks old niece who has stolen a tiny piece of my heart. The time away from New York was much needed though I was blissfully happy to return to The Boss’s arms after my weeks away from him. I was even happier when we both hit the road again so he could meet my sister’s daughter.
The last few months have been a great time of reflection for me and I’ve had to peel back a few layers to remember who I am. But I think I’m getting there. In the days ahead I want to be focused on reclaiming my strength from anything or anyone who has ever tried to make me feel less than. I want to refocus my spiritual energies and open my heart to the wave of love and gratitude that has the power to wash away the bitter taste and sadness that has often consumed me.
I am working toward who I want to be and I won’t allow myself to drown in the person I am not yet.
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Inshaallah, may God give you the strength to take the path you need to!
Thanks, Sana. Ameen
How are you able to stay away from The Boss for so long???
I know exactly how you feel, only it’s been over a year now, and I feel like i’ve been sinking deeper and deeper. I’m not exactly sure how to go about finding answers, or myself for that matter… I just know something has to give soon.
Any ways, I pray that you’re given the strength and zeal to accomplish what you need to dig yourself out.
Salaams
Iman
I’ve been feeling the same way for quite some time now. I don’t know how to find myself since i can hardly find the energy to come up with a plan. If you don’t mind, can you do a post on how you were able to take the necessary steps to begin this journey of self-reflection and finding one’s self?
walah, I’m at a loss. My Allah guide us all. Amin
Beautiful pic and post! I ve been feeling the same for years now . I’m glad you are making yourself and your feelings ,a priority . I’m always looking out for ways to inspire my soul and bring me closer to Allah swt … This a wonderful link lemme know what you think http://www.yasminmogahed.com/category/spirituality/purification-heart/
Thanks Nisa. I’ll check out that link
@Nira it’s a process for sure. But with tons of dua’a and effort I think we’ll all get there inshallah. Hang in there
@Iman Ameen. And for all of us. Especially the Muslim women in this Ummah. We have to create a space for each other and ourselves that is nurturing and encouraging. No one can or should go at this alone.
@Samiya